I will not be discouraged... yet.

I LOVE researching things on the internet and getting as much information as I can about topics I am obsessed with... one being getting pregnant.  I found this info on the average dpo for a first bfp.  VERY encouraging.  It says the average dpo is 13.6 to get a positive test, during a 14 day luteal phase.  So... until AF shows... I will not be discouraged!!

 http://www.fertilityfriend.com/Faqs/When-can-I-expect-a-positive-HPT-if-I-am-pregnant.html

The waiting game.

I am 12dpo (days past ovulation) and still getting BFN's (BIG FAT NEGATIVES).  I am thinking that we did not get pregnant this month, but I know I'm not out til AF shows.  I went to see the Dr. today and she is happy that it did indeed make me ovulate and says that we can try clomid as long as we want to... it is really up to us how much money we want to put in to make this happen.  I am happy staying with clomid for a few more months, considering it only cost us $6!!  She did say that IUI would probably not make much difference, because my bloodwork looks good and J's semen analysis looked good too.  One thing we might do if this month doesn't work is an HSG.  This is where they check to see if your tubes are blocked.  If my tubes are blocked with scar tissue or whatever, then I could be ovulating, but there is too much resistance to get the sperm and egg together.  This would clear out my tubes and see if there was any blockage.  She also said insurance typically covers this, which is good.  I would like to do that before doing any other medication.  So... still waiting.  Hopefully I will know in a matter of days if we can expect a little one in 2010 yet or not.

A Beautiful Sight

This... my friends... is a BBT chart showing ovulation on day 16!!  16!!  This is amazing for me!!!!!  Can you tell I'm EXCITED!?!?!  I know you love knowing these intimate details of my life... and I realize that by sharing this, I am also sharing WHEN I would know if we were pregnant or not.  But I have come to the decision that if you are reading this blog you are near and dear to me and would be one of the FIRST to know if it happened.  For most of the world I would wait until we were out of the first trimester, but for my best buds, I am okay with sharing our joy with you... and of course asking for your prayer.  :-)

Need some peace.

Ugh... needing some prayers today.

Pregnancy announcements are ALL over right now... and I truly am happy for those people, but every time it is like a punch in the gut that it is not happening for me.  I just feel discouraged... sad.  I just need to find strength from someone other than me. 

So... with all that - I just need prayers for TRUST and PEACE.  I just wish it were easier.  I guess every day is different...  and today I just need some extra prayer. 

I LOVE ALL OF YOU. :-)